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I had a dream yesterday. I often have a dream,
But yesterday's dream was new for me.
Because I speak English in the dream! ahaha It was funny.

What did I say in the dream,
"Fila. Stop! Why are you bite me? Why? Stop! Fila!"
Yeah, she always bite me when I chat to use PC or Phone.

She doesn't bite me when I read the book and eat something.
But she disturb me when I chat with someone.... Jealousy?
I often play with Fila. But why she bite me?

Anyway I wake up when I laughed,
why did I speak English in the dream?

GIANNA BOCHICCHIO SCHELOTTO

I read her book, title is "Perchè diciamo le bugie".
Writer is Gianna Bochicchio Schelotto. She is Italian.
But you know, I've read this novel in translation, of course.

Title, meaning of "Everyone tells a lie".
Why did I borrow it? Because this title is eccentric.
And it's psychological novel.

She said about a lie in this book, her opinion is interesting.
But not only opinion, she wrote a novel. It was also good.

She said the end of the novel, it's appendix.
"I've some list of a lie, everyone often tells that lie."

: It was so good.
: Don't mind me!
: I've no sex with my wife for a long time.
: My children grow up when I can live with you.
: I similarly love my children.
: You looks very young always.
: I'll call you.
: I never think you disturb me.
: I never do it again.
: I cannot to tell a lie.
: I cannot to fall in love.
: If we break up, you can always counting on me.
: Earnings are contributed to philanthropy.
: I don't scared to die.
: Sorry, I got caught in a traffic jam.
: I'm glad to see you again!
: My friend has a problem, because he's the early ejaculation,
do you have good advice?
: She is just friend.
: I smoke only 1 cigarette after meal.
: I'm going to diet from Monday.
: I go to the dinner but I only eat salada.
: You're slender, madam. This dress is good for....
: You're Gemini? I thought so.
: The manager stepped out for a moment.
: I made call you many times, but you always talk by phone.
: I do anything when you need me.
: It's my fault, yes, it's only me.
: I don't boast.
: I read in beauty parlor...
: I don't want to hurt you, and I didn't to tell you about it.

It's not all, but... It's very funny! Do it refer to you?

MISAO KIRYU

The day before yesterday, I went to the library to borrow some books.
I choose 4 books. First, "Damashi no tensai", writer is Misao Kiryu.
In English... mmm... maybe, "Cheat of genius".
Misao Kiryu, it's pen name, actually writing by two people (women).
I like their books,
because their story is almost about Middle Ages.
I'm interesting this period.

And I finished reading it yesterday. It was very very interesting!!!
I didn't know there was the most funny people in the world.
Anyway it's interesting!

I'll remark about another books one of these days.

NEWS

There's various news in the world.
Sometimes it's good news, it's funny news, but not that all.
I want to know various news in the world.

Mostly I've enjoying news of EURO. There's many funny news.
Actually I just read only funny and strange news on the Web.
You know, the internet is very convenient.

I don't know how to say...

You know, there's a lot of bad and sad news in the world.
I read it when I feel very sad. But sometimes,
I'm very very very ashamed when read Japanese news.
Because that news was very stupid, but I cannot do anything.
Perhaps I can do something...

Anyway I read Japanese the news today
when I was ashamed very much.
The news said "We grows HaKuSaI (napa cabbage),
and we've a good crop HaKuSaI this year
because the weather was very good for HaKuSaI.
But we dump it, because there's a lot of it when go down in value.
So we have to dump it."

I understood this farmer a little bit, yes a little bit.
But I don't believe that, the HaKuSaI looks very good!
and farmer knows it!
I want to say the farmer "Why should you dump it?
Why did you choose to dump it? Why?
Is there no alternative to way?"

I guess there's many problems. But why??? What a waste!
There're many people need it in the world,
because they have no food... and die...

I read this news when I'm ashamed very very much. It's idiot.

Ugh...

It'll be rainy today.
I hate... but I like to hear sound of rain. It's so nice.

Yesterday I watched the DVD, it's WHITE OLEANDER.
I recorded this proglam on DVD the other day.
This film, it's mysteruius. I like it.
Maybe I'll watch it again.

Hiroine is Alison Lohman, she appeared BIG FISH too.
I love it, but I watched this film when I didn't know who is she.
Anyway I don't think she's beautiful or cute.
But she has sexy, don't you think so?

SLEEP TIGHT

My cousin's daughter came in my house yesterday.
She sometimes comes suddenly.

She was a little girl when we had a eat snack and chat.
And it's the same now.
I thought she'll go back home, but not.
She asked me "I want to stay tonight"
And then, she usual slept with me in my bed.

If I've niece, like her.
Actually I think she's my niece.

Anyway, NuKuMoRi, warmth is special for me.
She gave me last night. It was good.

By the way, my condition is better than yesterday.
I still feel dizzy, but it's not like yesterday.
Absolutly I need many many time... patience, patience.

Well, I'm fine today, so I'll go to video rental shop
and I'll borrow something.

FIRST PERSON

I set menu of "Send me!" in this Web Site.
I just want to comunication more.
But actually I don't do it recently because I get tired.
My heart is not good so I cannot to chat on Skype. Only mail now.

And the first person is from Great Britain. I'm happy.

I don't know the truth where are you from.
But I don't care, I just want to think simply.

Half the number of the visitor is Japan.
And half the number of foreign countries are... many.
Spain, the U.S, Italy, Finnish, Austria, British, and stuff.

It's interesting... and thanks.

I feel sick, it's like a carsickness. I mean, I feel dizzy all the time.
Because it's a new medicine. It's awful.
But actually I've never felt carsickness. Kikiki.

REPORT

I went to the doctor on Monday, and I report to you it.
My heart is not good. Size of heart, progresses early.
Heart is growing by 1cm in this half year.
And the numerical value of BNP is high.

Provision for it, I'll take a new medicine.
This medicine lowers blood pressure at the same time
and the load of the heart seems to lighten.

I don't want to tell about this progress to my parents.
My heart disease doesn't recover because it's obstinate.
Actually I need take a new medicine this time.
So I have to tell about it to my parents.
But it's hard for me.

I talked about it to parents Monday night when they were...
I felt they feel sad. I don't know should I do.

I want to say to my parents, "I'm so sorry" But I can't.
This my disease, reason is not me, and not my parents.

by Margaret Drabble

When nothing is sure, everything is possible.

TIRED

It's fine day today. Too fine, and a little cold.
But I have to go to the doctor today.
I don't want to...

I anxious about my result of heart.
So I renewed this Web Site, I ate snacks between meals,
and I was sleeping... Kikiki

I can sleep very well recently,
and I can to complainng continually in here.
This stress is better than last year.
But stress is stress.

It's bad for heart.

I notice when next monday is hospital, I'm done for.
But the day before it's better and I think
"I want to see my doctor!", it's funny.

Yes, it's better than last year.
I seem grow up a little bit. Good.

THE PHONE
My mobile was ringing yesterday when I saw the name who make a call. It was my boss. Actually he was my client. I worked this job when my mobile ring, I mean, I know the work time if I'm the reaper. Yes, my job was embalment and assistant of funeral. I thought it's my vocation. But not. Anyway I like this job. I get the phone when I was thinking about... I'll be in trouble if talk about job, I cannot to work now. And I've a gap of about 2 years. But I want to work... But this time, it was not about job, he asked me my safety. I'm afraid so, but I'm happy his call. Thanks, boss.

SHOPPING
Yesterday morning, I was not fine. So I went out with mum. First, I went to the pet shop for Fila's food. I didn't feel a recreation. And then, I went to the bookstore, and I bought two magazines, it's Sudoku and Football. But I wanted some novel, and then, I went to the library. And I brrow 3 books. Tony Parsons's "man and wife" and "one for my baby" it's in Japanese, and Roald Dahl's "The Twits" it's in English. I remember Tony Parsons's "beautiful boy" was good story, so I choose his next books. And Roald Dahl, I love his story. There's black humor and I can read if in English, because it's for children. But I didn't know what is meaning of the title. TWITS, I examined it, TWIT, its meaning a stupid or silly person. Oh... like me?

AS USUAL
You know, I've no news as usual, so my diary, blog is not funny. But I go out with mum and cousin recently. I know, it's good for me. But I'm not enjoying myself. I want to change my life. And I like to study and to play hobby and to read some books. I'm doing it now. But not fun. I want to disappear sometimes, but I'm afraid the death when I've heart attack. I see the world when I think I'm lucury, but also I'm misfortune. Dante said "There's no greater grief than to remember days of joy when misery is at hand." I agree with him. But I remember when I was 15-20 years old. That time was very special and happy for me.

THE LOO
Last night I went to the bed at 0:00 am, and I work up at 5:30 am. So, it's about 5 hours. But I was sleeping when I went to the loo 5 times. 5 times! It's many times, don't you think so? I don't believe that. I work up midnight few month ago when my dad went to the loo many times, I thought old is too hard. But now, it's me! I'm already a middle-aged woman!? Oh, no...

I OFTEN HAVE A NIGHTMARE
I was a little girl when I had a bad dream sometimes, it's nightmare. This dream is; I'm swimming in the pool when shark is coming to me, and I want to run away, but I get the pool side when shark bite the lower half of my body. Why had I this dream? I know, because it's the film, JAWS! And actually I cannot to swim...
And teenager, sometimes I had a terrible nightmare again. It's about friends and acquaintance, why is it a nightmare? Because the matter is death.
And then, I had a wonderful dream sometimes, because I fly in the sky by my psychokinesis. Yeah, it's just a dream. But I had this dream when my awakening is too bad, because it makes me tired.
And another dream, it's "good old" It's good. I can to meet with old friends, but I feel sad, because I cannot to meet with someone in the real world. This morning, I had a dream, I met with old friend in the dream, I met last time 10 years ago. I want to meet with him in the real world. How is he? I want to know.

Ugh!
My last school is polytechic of confectionery. This weekend, school festival. And I want to go there, but I cannot. Because next Monday I must go to the doctor of my heart. I was looking forward school festival and party. Actually the party is better than festival. You know I've heart disease, but I love drink. Anyway I'm afraid of... I refused the party to organizer, but I knew the day of the party. I think organizer is thinking about me "Michi is irresponsible" But I must to decided to go the doctor on Monday. I was not able to choose it. I go to scool if there is near my house. But too far. I need to take some train, 1 and a half hours. I cannot to go to the party this time, but next year I go!

DOODOO
This picture is Fila doodoo... sorry if you don't want to see it. Anyway I think she's strange, don't you think so? She doodoo when doesn't sit.

DATE
Yesterday I went to shopping with cousin's daughters. The other day, they asked me "we want to new boots and dress, so could you go together?" They're junior high school student and we went to 109 and jorna(shop's name) it's for teenagers. And I didn't forget it's not holiday. But there're not many people and it was fine day. Absorutly I got tired very much. So I needed to sleep more today. Anyway I saw interesting girls who wore the same clothes, it was boots and short pants. Now in Japan, it's new fashion in teenagers.

BLOODY FOOL
Damn... I know it was my mistake, but... O what a bloody fool! Last month I went to the doctor when check my heart. It examination was too bad, so I didn't to tell my parents about it. Till now it was no problem 'cos my parents didn't come to the doctor with me recently. But this month, my mother said to me "I'll go to with you next time" Why? Why she wants to the doctor with me? The examination, it'll come out... Can I lose her? I don't think so. But I don't want to tell them about my heart of examination. If I tell them they'll be nervous, worried, anxious... Ouch!

THE VARSITY
I don't like Japanese representative of volleyball. Provably I don't know what is fun. I know play is funny 'cos I played the volleyball when I was a girl, but watching is tedious. And you know, Japanese representative is not cute. I guess they doesn't make up during the game, but they've no eyebrow. Why they doesn't use the eyebrow pencil? I don't believe that. It's funny.